today I was surprised by
my own period
like it hasn’t come clockwork
for over twenty years

the days now are
both numbered and
no longer numbered
if you know what I mean

the blood now is
both expected and
if you know what I mean

I want to write a poem about this
but then I think
when people say I’m too much
this might be what they mean

give me the days that are
fast fading for the dead
and give me the blood that is
brightly red for the living